First Day Jitters…

Ace started pre-school today. Here they have 3 sessions you can choose and we chose the winter/spring one.

I was/am a nervous wreck! We packed his lunch last night and got all of his supplies and clothes ready so the morning wouldn’t be too chaotic. So this morning we woke up, did morning prayers, ate breakfast and got ready. I snuck two Hershey kisses into his lunch box with a little note and told him I was sending some of my kisses with him to school. He kept asking how and I told him he’d find out in school.

The whole drive he kept telling me how nervous he was and that he didn’t know if he could go a whole day without me. I told him he had to be brave like the saints and that we taped an icon of the Archangels (his patron sts.) in his backpack. I also put a few wallet sized photos in 2 badge holders and clipped them on his backpack so he would feel like he wasn’t that far from us. I told him he could look at them anytime he missed us and it should remind him that I’d be there to pick him up soon. I also kept reminding him of all the fun things he was going to do in school. I’m telling you if he would’ve started crying I would’ve turned my little minivan around and said forget the whole thing! 🙂

We sang fun songs like Bear Hunt and Catalina Matalina while we were driving and once we got close we said a prayer together. I walked him in and his teacher asked him to find his name on his cubby and his seat. So he found his cubby and put his things away and then went to find his seat. Once he did he sat right down and started talking with the other kids. I gave him a hug and a kiss (twice) and then realized that I was lingering. So I said goodbye to the teacher and left. And cried my eyes out the whole way home. Lucky kept pointing at Ace’s seat and trying to figure out why we left him somewhere.

Someone please tell me this gets easier! I’m so nervous leaving him in some stranger’s (however nice) care. I think of all the crazy things that happen in schools and I’m ready to have a nervous breakdown! I keep praying and reminding myself to have faith and that I am sending him to school (and not homeschooling) out of obedience and so everything will be fine. But I miss my boy!

13 thoughts on “First Day Jitters…

  1. May God bless Ace on his new journey in preschool. Niko is only 1 1/2, but I can only imagine how you feel. I would be crying too! But, with God’s guidance, he will be just fine! Father and I are already talking about preschool. If we still are at the chuch we are assigned to now, then we will be blessed because they have a preschool. We will pray for Ace tonight. Have a great day, and just think how excited you will be when you pick Ace up from preschool and how happy he will to see you!

  2. Oh, Sylvia I cried throughout your whole post! But I think it’s wonderful! First because of the abundance of blessings that come from obediences (especially really difficult ones!). Secondly because, well, just think of all the little boys and girls Ace might influence for the good because of his pure, childlike faith! No matter how hard it is for you (and for Ace) it’s blessed and that’s what will make all the difficulties worthwhile! May God strengthen both of you to complete your obedience with zeal!

  3. This reminds me of yesterday’s getting shots: I was mostly a wreck, my husband was laughing at the baby’s reaction, and the little one was all: “Hey, I don’t like that! … oh, I’m okay now.”If you are sending him to school out of obedience, then the pain you feel now may be your spiritual muscles getting the exercise they need. Good strength!

  4. It does get easier. And then those days when he is at home are that much more special (like today-Pavlos is sick and so it is really nice to have him home- although I wish he were feeling better). I am right now considering sending Petros to pre-school next fall (at Pavlos’ school- we are extremely blessed to have a small Orthodox school here) but a huge part of me just wants to keep him home because he is my baby (I am unable, for health reasons, to have more children) and I just want to hold him and kiss him and squeeze him rather than send him to preschool…

  5. well… you know… i loved preschool… i started earlier age wise than many (my fine motor skills need a jump start) and it was a really good experience!i actually have a picture of a friend and i at that age that i always loved… i have lost touch with this friend but i try to pray for her when i see the picture!let us know how it went! i am sure it will get better really soon! 🙂

  6. Sylvia, My honey, it will get easier as time goes on. I bet he loved it, didn’t he? You’ll be able to spend quality time with Lucky now. He is very sociable, so he will be fine. Plus, social skills are very important at their age, too. I love you, Nana

  7. Thank you all so much for your encouragement! Your words all mean *so* much to me and I am so thankful to have found such a wonderful group of sisters. 🙂 I’ll keep you posted on the rest of the week!

  8. I work in a pre-school…believe me, once you get in the habit and meet the other moms, get to know the teachers, you’ll be fine. For the first 2 weeks or so we used to have moms who would hang out in the building, then they realize they could get their grocery shopping done, or have coffee with friend during that time. Does Panteleimon nap during that time? Maybe you could get some housework done? Bake. You’ll be so busy while he’s in school you won’t worry…

  9. Lord have mercy! It DOES get easier! I was working PT and had to put Brianna in daycare a few days a week, and we BOTH cried at drop-off time. But a few weeks later she was very happy to get to have her fun at school! Make a quick exit and it makes it easier on the child. I love the fact you gave him pictures of your family. I’m going to try that one!

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